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Jul. 15th, 2009 @ 04:34 pm
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WOW O_o A programmer is actually interested in tackling my idea for a "virtual pet" site :) Must remember to Private Message this person as soon as I get back from the gym - :) I thought it was a pretty long shot but yay nice people do exist :) Ok really for really real going to gym now /closes lid of laptop and wanders off to go get changed. |
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Jul. 15th, 2009 @ 04:21 pm
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I want to rest a moment before putting away groceries and going to the gym. Kaylee goes to the vet soon so I dont have too much longer to procrastinate because I take ungodly long showers (40 mins on average). So 30 mins working out, 40 mins shower = an hour and 10 minutes meaning when i get out of the shower it will be 5:30 and I have to leave here at 6:30 to take her to the vet (appointment is at 7). So max I can only put it off another 30 or 40 minutes tops...
D: SO not in the mood D:
AND AND.... I forgot to buy bottled water D: I was thoughtful enough to buy my boyfriend another 2 liter of diet cola because I drank a lil bit of it lastnight, but I forgot that the reason I drank it was because I'm out of water D: I even been drinking tap water last 2 days. AND as I was taking out the garbage, used the last garbage bag OMG..... SERIOUSLY need to check this shit before I go to the store next time D:
Not a huge crisis but GOD DAMN now I gotta go back tonight or tomorrow D: fuck....
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D: must force... force... FORCE myself to go to the gym..... I thought about making excuses that i'm busy. D: I kinda am I gotta clean the house before my boyfriend's friend comes by to pick something up tonight D: I have shit I have to do and instead I'm sitting here bitching ahaha..... sigh.... Off I go D: to the place of doom... I mean... gym. D: This shit better pay off in a few months or I'm gonna be seriously pissed. |
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Jul. 15th, 2009 @ 02:05 pm
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I feel like I've already lost a little bit of weight even though I know that's not really possible. It's only been a few days. I need to go get some groceries, eat lunch, and go work out, then I need to shower and take kaylee to the vet today for a booster (thats not til 7pm tho so I still have time.)
I really hope my weight loss endeavors pay off.... by halloween especially. I want to drive my boyfriend crazy. I like costumes ^^ and not just for those reasons. I looked at some the other day and was almost tempted to order one (a plus size one) but I'm hopeing to not BE a plus size anymore by then... Three months to lose 2 dress sizes... probably too unrealistic. But I can HOPE anyways lol. |
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Jul. 15th, 2009 @ 02:37 am
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I felt sorta blah blah blah today. my tummy felt sick towards the later half of the evening. I didnt eat very many carbs today and I wonder if that is the culprit. The only carbs I had were in 1 hotdog bun and a small handful of onionrings (really less than 10 rings total.) I ended up having a low carb lunch because the loaf of bread in the fridge had gone bad. So I made turkey rollups instead using cheese and turkey. I cooked hot dogs and Orings at the boyfriend's request, and so hadnt had any carbs til late in the evening. I tend to throw up when I do the lowcarb diet after a few days, so I'm wondering if my nausea tonight was related to the low carb intake today. I need to buy a few groceries tomorrow. I want to buy some fruit, need a new loaf of bread, some hamburger/hotdog buns, etc. I should probably flop into bed for the night it is late. I made it over 70% into my level tonight in a relatively short amount of time. RP'd a little, and helped my boyfriend and his friend with a few quests. Those were about the highlights of my day, oh and kaylee. I'm always cuddling her ^^ It was super cute/funny when my boyfriend got off work he wanted to see the cat and sat in a chair in the living room. I was on the couch a few feet down and the cat kept leaving the boyfriend and coming to me/licking my face and laying next to me, so eventually the boyfriend moved to the couch and got to hold the cat, and we lost track of time watching youtube videos....
Tiddy bear = WTF but somehow strangely cute and my bf laughed because he thought that I would probably buy one lol. Well the seatbelts DO cut into my neck/shoulder sometimes.... Still "TIDDY" bear? RUSERIOUS.... lol.... Tiddies r srs bizness. lolz. (also alot of boobs in here for the guys - enjoy)
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Jul. 14th, 2009 @ 01:23 pm
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I am for some reason exhausted today. I slept in til 12:34 lol.... oopsie... And I have a really killer headache in like the back/base of my head It's one of those days today X_X; Blarghhh |
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heh I gained 3 levels on my priest today, working on a 4th and may just make it. i dunno though since it is almost 2:30am...
I noticed though that people are WAYYYYY nicer when you are playing a healing toon than a dps toon. like way nicer.
I had this lil gnome mage run around making me bread/water/following me/assisting me today
And now I'm engaged in RP with a different lil gnome mage. About the last hour now. But if I didn't know that lachlan was laying in bed asleep right now I'd swear he was playing a joke on me. Because this guy has hit on my character twice now, all the while being totally completely 100 percent in character and I have politely and in characterly shut him down repeatedly. Saying that priests aren't allowed to date and it's frowned on by the church and even that I have a paladin who I will be journeying with in a few more seasons. facepalm. They are a good roleplayer and have not broken the veil at all but are also appearently young or havent given much thought to the fact i could be like 50 or a dude or weigh like 400 lbs etc. lol.
It is odd... this person just sent me a random tell. All be it, I was stirring shit (not in a troll like fashion, just commenting on things here or there) so to speak on trade channel and putting my name out there. But still the person messaged me as if we were old friends and had known eachother for ages, I asked on the guild if anyone knew of this person as someone's alt or mule.
It even occurred to me that it could be one of my boyfriends' friends screwing around/playing a joke on me. But I decided that was pretty far fetched and dismissed the idea very quickly.
Then I thought maybe it was an online friend from somewhere playing a joke on me too but I'm not on my main, I'm on a mule, and although I have made mention of the mule's name a few times on LJ and elsewhere, that also seems far fetched. However the thought lingered, since it was a person on a week trial pass as they made in character references to their limitations. Which would make it slightly feasible that one of my friends could have rolled a character on CC and looked me up.
However I'm fairly sure now that it's just a random person. They have a guild and are of 12th season already, so it's not likely to be a joke. I enjoy the RP but have had to steer the conversation away from "omghi do u has a bf" type of questions 3 times now lol. He sorta finally got it and said that the paladin was very lucky and that if I know of any other dranei who share my love for gnomes to send them his way. lol.
And since then I haven't had trouble. Another hour has passed since I've typed this :) RP is fun. And it's 3am and we've pretty much both decided we are tired and I'm just turning in one last quest. I'm close to lvl 29 :) Once I reach 30 I can level with brian's paladin and wont die as much plus wont be as bored because I'll have someone to do the quest chains with yay :D
Jul. 14th, 2009 @ 02:12 am
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I got to "play" with the bf a bit today, which made up for the lack of "play" yesterday XD, and should keep me happy til about middle/endish of the week. I got snuggles too and we played rockband. I'm in a half asleep state of mind right now. Can actually barely keep my eyes open, but not so much from sleepyness, as much as just a calm peaceful feeling, the feeling when you get your pillows arranged just right and the blankets feel just right and you just dont want to move. :) It's like a battle of wills for me to even press the right keys on the keyboard. But I'm not quite ready for sleep not just yet :) It's times like these that I realize how much I truly love my laptop... I want a desktop because my laptop just doesnt perform well anymore and no laptop will ever perform as well as an equally priced desktop... but damn.... the comfort and ease factor of laptops almost makes up for the lag, crashing, overheating, and glitches when playing graphic intensive games lol. :P
Jul. 13th, 2009 @ 12:56 am
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sigh, restless, bored, kinda lonely.
Brian had a really long day at work yesterday like 18 hours. So I tried to give him space to do his own thing today for the most part. We did watch a movie together. I mostly slept cuz I had watched it lastnight (and only got like 4 or 5 hrs of sleep lastnight) and we played with the cat a bit. But other than that he played his computer/xbox today and I tried to play on mine but was mostly charged with looking after the cat while he played, which I didn't mind too much. But what I was hoping was that after he was done playing that we could... erm... play lol.... I even kept my bra on all night til about 15 minutes ago when he went to bed, because my boobs looked really good in my dress I was wearing. I tried sitting/leaning/tugging at the dress etc so that it would call obvious attention to the vneck neckline and my rather large chest, but to no avail. My boobies lose out to xbox I guess haha... In his defense he was on the last level of his game and trying to beat it D: But still....
Dude... once every two weeks (at best) is no where NEAR enough. D: But if I complain it comes back to "Yeah well if you'd lose weight I'd want to sleep with you more..." D: I went to the gym like 4 or 5 days out of the week and ran almost 2 miles each time D:.... I dunno.... I want MOAR SECKS DAMMIT lol......
Seriously.... everyday would be nice.... but I'd settle for 2-3 times a week. That'd be enough to keep me "happy". Happy in quotes because well I'm happy (in every other sense) but ... ya know... :P girls have urges too.
I showered, shaved, "shaved", put on perfume, lotion, etc, etc. Trying everyhting to make myself appealing. Deliberately picked a plunging neckline and a bra to show off my cleaveage. I tried idley scratching, rubbing my neck/chest/etc to make it seem innocent but still hoping the movement of my hand would draw further attention to my already barely covered breasts and nothing, not even a grope D:
I's sad now.
I even cooked a roast for dinner and bought a chocolate cake D: And gave him some free items in WoW He even said he owed me snuggles for the items, so where the hell are my "snuggles" lol. (because with us thats usually what snuggles lead to ;p)
D:
The last time that I shaved down there, about 2-3 weeks ago, Well alright let's not back up that far just yet, more recently about a week ago or so well his friends somehow got on the topic of this, started talking about guys and facial hair, and how the woman should have a say because she has to kiss the guy, and one of the girls' husbands/fiances/boyfriends whatever he is said the same could be said about "the basement" and how it was "jurasic park down there and something almost bit him the last time" His girl turned really bright red and when me and brian got in the car I laughed about how embarrassed she was and about the topic in general and the guy's jurassic park quote. And he was like "yeah well you're one to talk" and I was like "uhm I shaved" and he was like "Once maybe" And I'm like "No recently, like a week or less ago" and he was like "Oh I didn't know" and I'm like "Well you should know, we've had sex since then." and he was like (jokingly trying to defend himself) "Hey the room was dark!" and we both laughed....
I think I'm just more sexual than him. He'd be fine with having sex once a month at most probably. But I really would like it once a day, or a couple times a day even on his days off lol...
Then again I heard this is pretty typical, women are more erm amorous in their late 20s/early thirties and men are more so in their early teens/twenties.
I mean I know I'm not the most beautiful girl in the world... But I'm still a girl. I smell pretty and feel soft, and have the required parts lol. XD If I really do end up losing weight hopefully I'll get more action cuz I dunno but the last year or two I've become a pretty physical person and require a rather large amount of physical love/attention. Who wouldve thought the girl who really had no interest in sex, and in fact didnt even like to be touched much by people, all be it I was young, but not that young lol last boyfriend before brian I was already 21 or 22 somewhere in there, but who would have thought 6 or 7 years later I would be practically begging for sex... lol... times and people sure do change. Sex was mostly take it or leave it, didnt care either way, and mostly went along with it to make the guys happy. But now I really like how it feels and the psychological "side effects" before, during, and after making love.
I rant about this alot I know D: I sound like a broken record. But journals are for ranting :) And I don't have too many other complaints right now, other than the lack of a job and the lack of sex/physical contact.
Jul. 12th, 2009 @ 12:46 am
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My cat is so clingy. She still cries anytime she can't physically see humans, anytime you go to the restroom and close the door, anytime you shut her in her crate or kitty proof room (like when cooking or something) she screams like she is being murdered, I ran to the bank, was gone about 15-20 minutes and come back and she's still screeching, all be it her meow is VERY soft/weak and I doubt anyone can hardly even hear her, but I feel like horribly guilty leaving her alone. She's like a damn puppy. I have NEVER in my life, seen a CAT with seperation anxiety. That's typical in dogs, but in cats???
I need to go work out but she is like OHAI MOMMY I WANTS SNUGGLES!! *snuggi snuggi snuggi snuggi snuggi*
And I feel so bad thinking of locking her up, she is laying on my torso right now snuggling and I was paying some bills and removed her off of me like 8 or 9 times and she let forth a weak mew and repositioned herself on me, gently licking my face and dozing off to sleep.
It's so cute. but I also want to go work out and shower before her "daddy" (my boyfriend) gets home.
The reason I prefer cats over dogs is because all of my dogs are like OMGHI OMGHI OMGHI it's like DEWDS..... settle. I've never had a cat that was like a dog.
Until we got Kaylee. She wakes people up by licking their face, like a dog. She eats her weight in kibble, like a dog, she has seperation anxiety like a dog, she even howls like a dog, and she loves to cuddle, lay on her back and get her tummy rubbed, like a dog.
It's terribly cute.... So damn cute.... but also can be slightly to extremely annoying lol.
My favorite cat back home was named Minime, because he LOVED to cuddle, he would sleep wrapped up in my arms like a child holding a teddybear at night.... At first I was really happy that kaylee is quite a bit like him, and also in my experience, most female cats are not affectionate at all. So I was like awesome, she's going to be really cuddley.
But it's like damn dewd. u need to like learn that humans cant always be with you. You are a cat, you are supposed to be aloof and independent lol.
I can understand she was abandoned/shelter cat so she has some issues about abandonment but damn... lol.
She's still cute and I love her, but I kinda live my life and schedule around the cat now. In the morning when the boyfriend goes to work, I move into the boyfriend's bedroom just because that's the kittyproof room, no wires or cupboards or sharp objects, or expensive "toys", I have to move in there because otherwise the cat will just slam herself against the door and cry until someone lets her out (and at 6am I'm not ready to supervise her or even be awake) Or goes in there with her. They dont even have to interact with her, she just likes being able to "see" someone sitting there.
Kaylee makes me glad that I don't have human babies yet. I'm not ready yet, the whole "mommy, mommy, mommy look at me" thing is bad enough from a CAT, god forbid a human child who can actually open doors etc and not give me any break at all lol. /shudders.
I think I will go to the gym even though kaylee is sleeping so cute/happily on me purring and doing the bread kneading thing with her feet... I wanna run at least a mile each day. Sorry kaylee, mommy loves you but mommy needs some time for mommy right now.
Jul. 9th, 2009 @ 03:44 pm
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God I just LOVE when a guy smells good. Seriously. We watched like one episode of tv, so for all (sarcasm) of 30 minutes he held me as we cuddled on the couch and god he smelled SO GOOD. I told him that like 4 or 5 times. And even later in the night, after playing some WoW he came to show me something and sat beside me and he still smelled damn good. Not only that but when he held me on the couch I dunno if it was because I was so tired from working out or what but I don't think I've ever felt more comfortable or relaxed in recent memory (possibly ever). It was just like a perfect fit as we snuggled together, not boney, not squishy, not too tight, not too weak, I really can't describe it. I really wanted to stay lingering like that, but also wanted to play games with him so I reluctantly let him up so we could geek out a little. But yeah, guys that smell good are amazing :) He had just showered right before we cuddled/watched tv and omg... seriously XD And he held me not too tight but firmly, enough to make me feel all warm and safe and happy. If we had stayed like that for longer I wouldve fallen asleep on his shoulder for sure. I think it's the happiest I've felt all week, since the last week when he cooked me breakfast in the shape of a face and we went to pick out kaylee for the first time :) Sometimes he is just so sweet. I write about negative stuff too much so I just had to say that I feel really happy - I love him.
And I think on that happy lil note I will go to sleep it's after 2am. :)
Jul. 8th, 2009 @ 02:14 am
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My legs are stiff. I did 1.3 miles today in the same amount of time as 1 mile took me yesterday. and burned alot more calories today than yesterday. I thought about giving up when I reached the 1 mile mark. I was tired and had sweat dripping into my eyes even from running so hard. I am proud that I went the full time and didn't stop even once. Kept moving the entire work out at a steady pace didn't slow down or take a break at all. It makes me feel happy/proud even though I know it's not much yet. I almost didn't go today. It was after 4pm when I found time to slip down to the gym. I know it's only 30 minutes out of my day but I had alot of chores and errands today. I'm not eating much at all which I know is bad for metabolism but I just dont find the urges to eat anymore. When I lived at home I was hungry all the time. And had intense cravings for things. And another weird thing was alot of times if I'd eat something bad I'd want it again and again and again for days in a row after that. Not so much with meals as I'm not a fan of left overs, but snacks and bad things. Also (and I think I might still do this but havent had a chance to find out) when I was nervous, upset, or embarrassed I would mumble/whisper to myself "I'm hungry" even when I wasn't hungry at all, even if I just ate a 5 course meal and was stuffed to the gills, I would always say that, especially when I was embarrassed. I dunno why. Anyways ya that was sorta a tangent. Anyways now that I have to cook my own food and do my own dishes and take out my own trash and etc, I find eating to be less "fun" and alot of work. Also I get busy with other chores and errands and things and just put off eating etc. I eat only one meal a day and usually thats after the bf gets home since I'm ussually cooking then for him or on his days off he'll cook for me, etc.
So anyways I should start losing weight. I'm not eating much (which might stall weight loss initially but still that combined with the fact that I'm burning a couple hundred calories each day, and being more active by simple mathematics means I should see at least a LITTLE bit of weight loss.)
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In other news I get paid by the state again tomorrow. They called me today and basically told me that while I *technically* qualify for some of the programs that I have a good degree already and to just keep looking and that they would keep an eye open and call me if they found anything for me. ._. Discouraging... But yay I can pay most of my bills tomorrow and put a lil in the bank.
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Being unemployed is nice but also stressful and while working can be stressful it's also reassuring that you will be able to afford things and keep up with expenses. It'd also be good for me to get back out and make some friends and aquaintances on my own outside of my boyfriend's circle of friends, who are all nice and lovely, but they're *his* friends - not mine, and I would be better rounded to make some friends of my own, especially if this is it for the long haul, long term, rest of my life in this little ohio town. :)
Jul. 7th, 2009 @ 09:44 pm
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Ungh it's almost 1 already. I've just been applying for jobs all day today hardcore. I hope that I get something soon. I mean yeah technically I have til may 2010 before I **have** to get a job (IE unemployment cuts off after one year), But I don't want it to come down to that, because if it does, I may be forced to take a crappy minimum wage position and be worried about bills. It's stressful... It'd be GREAT if I could find something in my field... but at this point... I really just want ANYTHING that pays at least 9 an hour and is steady 40 hours or more every week.... /facepalm... Why is that so hard to find? I mean I'm not asking for alot here. sigh.
I gotta eat lunch and go to the gym and shower still today.
Jul. 7th, 2009 @ 12:42 pm
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Nothing like fooling around to boost your self esteem hehe... He came in as I was finishing my journal entry and sat in the chair next to the couch where I sleep. I remarked that he was "just in his boxers and sitting by me and that I should pounce him since he was so open" He did the ace ventura slash guy-ish "ohoho really" thing, sorta teasing me/egging me on. But I lamented that it was almost 1 in the morning and that I should let him sleep so he wasn't grumpy in the morning. and he remarked "That's what coffee is for" which was pretty much all the consent I needed as I slid out of bed and crawled across the floor towards him, beaming up at him mischievously. And now an hour later I feel alot better about myself lol XD. Being desirable, being wanted, being watched, feeling loved, that is like AT LEAST 70% of sex for a woman. Maybe even 80%. Don't get me wrong, it feels good ya, and we get horny just like men do for the physical aspects too, but for women, sex is a huge mind game and far more mental than physical. I mean think about it, for women in a typical relationship we play the submissive role in day to day life, but sex can make us feel powerful. In that sense guys are "weak" and easily controlled by their bodies, while women are playing the mind card, to move just a certain suggestive way, look at him a certain way, say certain things, all to elicit reaction. And the man's natural response, satisfies women's natural desire to feel needed / wanted / accepted in the relationship. Self validation should not (and in the long term does not) come from a man, but the quick fix "high" like feeling is really --- REALLY nice anyways. :) I told him that he would probably get pounced again tomorrow and he said "Good" reconfirming that he wants it, me, and that I'm desirable and that of course boosts my self esteem for awhile. True self esteem has to come from within, but every once in awhile being needed and wanted is enough to cheer me up for a little bit. To hear him moan and whisper softly to me and know that I'm causing all of that, makes me feel special :) Is that wrong? lol makes me seem kinda cheap or something, but just being honest with my feelings :)
Jul. 7th, 2009 @ 01:55 am
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What do I have to offer...
I thought about that today.
I went to the gym at the apartment for the first time since moving in. I did over a mile on the treadmill with 5 incline and 4 speed. I know it's not much but everyone has to start somewhere. I felt dizzy and my face was red for a long time afterwards. But I did it.
I feel ugly, sad about my weight, and depressed alot. I think alot of my "shyness" and social anxiety stems from just my low self esteem.
But I've been with my boyfriend for like ever right? But I know that even he doesn't find me attractive. He does, but he doesn't sorta thing. He says he does (find me attractive) or he wouldnt be with me, and on rare ocassions will tell me I'm beautiful or hot, but very very very rarely. Most of the time he tells me that if I would lose weight he would sleep with me more, be more attracted to me, and that I'd be "even hotter". He says I'm like a 6 on the guy scale thing, but if I lost weight I'd be a 9 or a 10. I know I'm almost middle aged now and should be past the point of caring (about things like silly guy scales). I'm not mad at him at all btw... I write it only out of self pitty for myself. I guess there MIGHT be a pretty girl somewhere hiding beneath all this fat. But there's so much fat that I just can't find her. That's how I feel about myself. I don't even feel like a 6... maybe a 4... at best. Average, slightly below average, to way below average, depending on the day and my mood. I rarely if ever feel "pretty". It's depressing...
On top of that the last time we had an arguement or minor disagreement, he said I was a bitch 90% of the time... This really really REALLY bothered me. I think I told him before (and wondered if he was using it as "ammo" in our fight, but, I was a complete bitch to my ex and that is why we broke up. Or my best guess as to why. And looking back there is not a single doubt or question in my mind, that the blame is ALL MINE. It still bothers me. I carry that shit around every day. Some days are harder for me than others in the blame game. Everything happens for a reason though because now I'm with my current boyfriend which I wouldn't have been without single handedly ruining my previous relationships. Silver lining?
But why it bothered me, was that I honestly feel like I've gotten SO MUCH better. I rarely get angry, rarely raise my voice, NEVER throw things or hit anyone, and rarely get jealous (I still do sometimes I'm human, but ussually it's in cases where the girl has overstepped a boundary, like kissing my boyfriend.) I mean I think I'm like 98% better. It's like night and day, the person I was 10 years ago, the person I am now... at least **I** think so.
**I** think I'm really sweet, supportive, calm, agreeable, friendly, loving, etc. And I know I'm alot better - or at least more open/willing to try things in bed now, as opposed to shy and walled off and afraid of sex in general which was another mistake with my ex.
So when my boyfriend told me I'm a bitch to him 90% of the time, it left me wondering WTF??? I asked him about it tonight now that we've had a few days since then, and he said "More like 70%"... Still W---T---F?????
Am I that bad of a person???! Really? Really? REALLY?
I don't understand what it is that I do so wrong. But he says that I say stuff without thinking until he points it out and then I say how sorry I am. well I do say I'm sorry anytime he says that I've hurt his feelings. The last thing I want to do is hurt him, and I do feel awful when it happens... But I don't always comprehend why he is so hurt or upset.
Sometimes I fuck up hardcore I know. I'm human. I fuck up. I know I do. But... 70% of the time?????! I think more like MAYBE 15% of the time tops. I mean most the time I ask him what he wants to do, do what he wants to do, play what he wants to play, listen to what he wants to hear, talk about what he wants to say, see what he wants to watch, so on and so on and so on. I try to do the chores the house is fairly neat. I am more than willing to assist in the bedroom even though my services are not required very often. I think I'm always supportive, a good listener, quiet, attentative, paitent, etc... But he feels like I'm a bitch 3/4ths of the time?
It's not that it hurts my feelings...
It's just....
Am I really a bitch and just oblivious to it?
Because I certainly did not realize the error of my ways until far too late with my other boyfriends, and it haunts me years afterwards for both of them. I don't want to feel that way again... to look back and have so many regretts...
Is it going to be the same way? That's what I wonder. I love brian and I wonder if I am taking him for granted or mistreating him. But I guess I probably will never know until it's too late.
Hindsight is 20/20.
If I could make up for all the mistakes I've made, and people I've hurt....
But life doesn't work like that.
You learn from your mistakes - or should. I thought I did... Have I been a blind fool all this time again?
Jul. 7th, 2009 @ 12:25 am
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Hmm the Ai yori Aoshi games by Kid/Hirameki are not that good (sorry :`( not trying to be ungrateful (they were a gift from a friend who reads this journal))... Just got done playing it for one full ending on both winter and summer islands... I have never seen the anime, so maybe that's why, but the game isnt really a dating sim, he's clearly only interested in the manager (((wild tangent: who hirameki calls "land-lady-san" which bothers me since in most anime, a landlord/landlady is called a manager, and manager-san sounds cuter/better than landlady-san)))), not interested in anyone else, so although the choices you make do affect the story somewhat, its pretty trivial.
On the plus side it has beautiful graphics and good animation - nicest visual effects I've seen in a visual novel with transitions, animations, etc. It's fully voiced (all be it in japanese), and has a really good musical score.
It's just a REALLY short (20-30 minutes per island), somewhat linnear natured visual novel. Which is disapointing...
I think maybe after I watch the anime series, I will understand and like the game better. It looks cute. I really like the landlady. She is cute!
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So yesterday MangaGamers and Jast announced some new visual novels. MangaGamers is doing Hiragushi (or however it's spelled.) Which is the company's first all ages endeavor. Jast recently teamed up with Nitro+ for some hentai titles -- however they do look exceptionally high quality with good art and a good plot and are quite popular in japan having already spawn anime series, novels, comics, movies, and more.
I'm hoping to see more VN in the future. Especially more all age games, although if the hentai is well timed and not making up the majority of the game, I can tolerate it. Storyline and Character Development above all else though.
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We seen transformers on friday. It was pretty good. I had fun. Hope everyone had a fun fourth of july. I did even though it was uneventful and I didn't get to see any fireworks this year oh well.
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I should get to bed. I feel tired. I had some strange dreams lastnight which woke me up early this morning.
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Our kitten is doing quite well. I have some new pics of her to upload tomorrow.
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Tomorrow's TO DO LIST:
1.) Job Searching
2.) chores/cleaning/etc
3.) Reply to my dad's email. Been busy all weekend and haven't had a chance to yet.
4.) Call my folks
5.) Return movies
6.) Check out alternatives to current movie place of choice due to price structure changes there. (thinking blockbuster probably has something similar + more selection - its about 10-15 minutes further drive but the new price structure going into effect this month at moviegallery/hollywoodvideo/gamecrazy is nuts.)
7.) Kaylee cuddling and of course gaming :)
Jul. 5th, 2009 @ 11:51 pm
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I got all my hair cut off. It didn't turn out exactly like I wanted... I don't hate it... I don't love it either. It's different. I think my boyfriend will really like it, he for some reason loves short hair on girls. I think it's the shortest I've ever had it in my life. My mom would hate it lol. And looking at the pics I took makes me realize how fat I am X_X; it's like "woah bitch, woah". Need to work out every day from now on. X_X; I look like shit oh well. one step at a time i guess. haircut is an improvement I think. my old style was very outdated and soccermomish. I didnt get any before pix. but it was like shoulder length or longer and just kinda hanging there without much style.
It's a lil more edgey now - edgey is hard with curly hair. sigh lol It was still kinda wet in the pic.
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Jul. 2nd, 2009 @ 04:16 pm
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Hello can anyone recommend some sim/vn games based on the following information please?
Requirements:
1.) I GREATLY prefer english language - either commercial or fan translated
2.) I'm not "afraid" of ero, but I would greatly prefer a game that focuses on story/character developement, Romance story preferred. Ero scenes are ok, but should be well timed and few in comparison to non ero scenes. I played Tsukihime and loved it, even though it had erotica. The erotica made up maybe fewer than 2 hours in each 8 hour path, with the majority of it being well written and well timed and seemingly appropriate for the situation. I don't want a game that's JUST a porno. (or more porno than plot) I'd like some actual moving, emotional plot and character development.
3.) Must have interactive, branching plot, with multiple paths and endings
List of VN/Sims (or games with partial vn/sim qualities) I have played:
Tsukihime
Clannad
Princess Maker
Tokimeki Memorial Girl's side 1 and 2
Graduation
Dark Alchemist
Ai Yori Aoshi
Piece of Wonder
Phantom Inferno - didn't really care for this one
Yojinbo
Thousand Arms
Persona 1-4
Lost in Blue
Phoenix Wright
Princess Debut
Avalon Code
Harvest Moon (various in the series)
most of the fan ren'py games from lemmasoft forums
I recently ordered Ever17 yesterday icon_smile.gif Been wanting it for years. Tried to buy it once before on ebay and the seller supposedly "died" and his "brother" refunded my money O_o; Can't wait to play it though icon_biggrin.gif
I plan to eventually order Kanon and Fate/Stay Night. - Importing is expensive and I'm lazy and don't want to install japanese unicode again (had it on here before I had to reformat)
I've probably played other games which I am now forgetting
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I'm considering buying "A drug that makes you dream" - I am aware it contains alot of adult content But it has high ratings on vndb. Can anyone tell me anything about it? Would I be happy with such a purchase or is it a rampant tasteless porno? The artwork is very pretty. I can't imagine a game with poor writing scoring so high on the database. Is it worth playing through for the storyline?
Also, all of the above questions, but in regard to following games which I know even less about:
Figures of Happiness
Crescendo
Snow Sakura
Princess Waltz
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Can anyone recommend anything not in my list that I may like? Thanks for your time and consideration.
Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 03:16 pm
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We decided to name the kitten Kaylee
Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 01:40 pm
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Some more names for kitty. I browsed all 1,000 of the top girl baby names for 2008. These were my top 5 aside from names which I had already thought of which were also on the list (such as bella)
Kaylee - descendent of norse gods
Kaitlyn - pure
Zoe - life
Layla - dark beauty
Kenzie - handsome
I'm strongly leaning to Kaylee or Kaedie for her. but Zoe at this point is a close 2nd :)
My bf seems to want to give her a human name he suggested Shelly lastnight which I don't really like, no offense to any Shelly's out there I just never have cared much for the name. Brian also suggested Lainey on Sunday and while I don't *LOVE* it, I like it a bit, and would be ok with naming her that, but I'm gonna pass these last few names by him tonight. I know he said it's up to me because he bought the cat for me, but I want us to pick out a name together :)
Jun. 30th, 2009 @ 02:49 pm
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Letter that I wrote to my mom, sums up my thoughts on the new kitty:
Hi mom, I figured I would email you instead of call so I could show you my kitty. We got her lastnight. She still doesn't have a name. It is a girl. She was born on march 19th 2009. She had 3 others in her litter and then last week the mother gave birth already to a second litter with 7 kittens. The mother and the first kittens were picked up at the ashtabula humane society where they were scheduled to be put to sleep due to over crowding and spay/neuter fees. The shelter called Forever Friends took them and the mother and she gave birth again right after they got her. So they named the mother Bahama Mama. And the kittens all have names of tropical islands. Mine was named Bermuda. I don't know if I'll keep that or name her something else.
She is really playful. She played and played and played for 3 hours straight when we brought her home. And she is running wild climbing on everything right now while I'm typing this. I didn't think she would ever let me hold her because when she was playing and if you tried to pick her up she would just wiggle away. But then lastnight she calmed down a little and laid on the couch with me for about 2 hours. I was getting sleepy and we didnt want her to chew on wires and stuff so we decided to block off the hallway with a box and chair and put her food/water/litterbox at the end of the hallway. But when I put her in the hallway she cried and cried and cried and wouldn't stop. Brian woke up and asked me if it was her and I said yeah. He sat with her for a little while til she fell asleep and then went into his room. Then she started crying again so I took my blanket and pillows and slept in the hall with her lol she's spoiled. Brian says he'll get a crate today for her to sleep in so she can sleep by one of us. She can be really sweet when she isn't running wild. She likes to sleep on my neck and shoulders when im sitting on the couch or laying down. That's where she is right now. She purrs really really loud, almost all the time. She purrs when she's playing, when she's snuggling, and sometimes even just sitting there. She purrs alot. Her meow is really weak because she's still a baby. She has hazle eyes, sometimes they look brown and other times green. She has been using her litterbox and hasn't had any accidents yet. The only bad thing is she chews wires and has to be chased away and goes back to them over and over and over and over. She likes to lay on her back and have her tummy rubbed which is weird for a cat. And she plays really gentle with humans, she only scratched me once and that was when she almost fell off my shoulder this morning. She is really sweet even though at first I didn't think she would be. I am glad that we picked her, when we were there yesterday and when we first brought her home I felt regrett that we didnt take the short hair one because it was more calm, but she turned out to be really sweet and I'm happy with her. She's funny too. Anyways here are some pictures of her. She already has some baby tangles around her face/neck.I need to get a brush for her soon.
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Jun. 30th, 2009 @ 12:57 pm
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